I was sitting there at the desk with nothing to do, simply starting at the monitor of my computer. There were people all around me busy in their work. It seemed to me that everyone had a motive, the thing that kept them busy with their work. I wondered what it was for me and nothing came to my mind but silence. It was surprising because I always believed that I was working towards something, something that only I understood. Well at that moment I felt it was an illusion that had kept me pushing forward all these years. I simply couldn't get myself together. There was too much at stake. Everything would have been a farce, my belief and my choices. I was compelled to resist it and thereby letting myself a small consolation somewhere deep down that it was worth it.
I tried to reason it with my inner conscious but it always ended with my resolution getting scarred even deeper. I am still sitting at the same desk, with people all around me working towards their goals. I still believe in my motives. Though wavering and stuttering at times I still hold on, hoping to see my self reach the shores of my destination.

It feels strange and hollow. I never understand why ? But that is how life is. You never know the reasons, all you know are the choices and you have to live with it. I have my share of choices and like any other person (some might not want too) who would want to go back and do them right the second time and feel the same too. But you never get second chances, its only a myth or you should be blessed by the hand of god. I stand at a crucial juncture in my life where desperation engulfs me and frustration controls me. I might sound pessimestic to a lot of people but that is how I am feeling right now.Hoping to see the brightness that is lurking round the corner I begin my journey forward. There is nothing that inspires me anymore, nothing that pushes me to make this journey, nothing that helps me overcome the hurdles. Yet I still undertake this journey, why ? The simple reason is hope. That is one word that strengthens my limbs and rejuvenates the sagging spirit. Hmm and so I begin the fateful journey to seek the elusive and conquer the unknown.

Finally the Colts cruise their way to a deserved championship victory. Peyton Manning has shown why he is the best QB in the NFL and colts the best offensive lineup. Surprising for the Chicago Bears the Colts defense came out blazing as opposed to the common notion.
Looking back at how the game went, I think it was the defense that won the game for the Colts. Though being one of the worst defenses in the nation against the running offenses , they came strongly during the Playoffs. Tony Dungy comes out from the grief of losing his 18 year old son to hand in Colts the Superbowl XLI championship title. He now joins the likes of Hofer mike Ditka and Tom Flores as only the 3rd person to win Super Bowl as player and head coach. An achievement that will go down into the record books.

Back to the game, Even though the Colts started slowly, they surely got going into the second quarter and the Bears had run out of steam by then. After the first half the Colts took firmer control of the game as minute passed and half way into the fourth quarter the writing was on the wall. Scenes of Victory seemed to vanish for the Bears and frustration of not getting the offensive plays right was taking over. On the other side Manning was doing much better than Grossman, though couldnt make it pay, but was supported superbly by the defense. Kevin Hardley bringing up a touchdown from an interseption took the game a little farther away from the bears and eased the pressure on the offensive team.

All in all a nice game and happy that the Colts have finally won it !!! A title they should have taken home last year, if not for the Patriots. The defeat of last year was avenged this year.
Now its time for me to get going on my assignments, or I shall be in trouble of getting SACKED right in the POCKET !!!

Sailing Away Beyond The Horizon !!!!!

Alas ! the wind has left my side, my will has weakened, my strength diminishing, my steps wavering, my sight hazy ...... and all I can do is stare at what lies beyond the horizon, unconquered and eluding. I am a warrior wandering the bloody way of life, looking for the eternal truth. What is the purpose of this unforseen and impossible journey? What is it that I seek? What is it that pushes me to drag my weakened body?

I was all alone, my mind was blank. I needed time to think, to refresh my thoughts. All my memories go back to one dark night. What I saw that night was real and not just a fantasy. There was an evil face that twisted my mind and brought me despair. I knew time was short and I had to hurry. Fear and pain rushed through my body leaving only a prey in me for the beast. I seem to run from those terrible eyes, which leave none alive in their sight. The very eyes that mesmerized me on that unholy night. Why was I left alive ? Am I being chased ....or am I leading him to the place where I shouldnt lead him ? I understand now, the ritual has begun and I am the sacrifice. To save myself I have taken this impossible journey, to escape the wrath I look beyond the horizon. To find a way out I seek the truth. Yet all I see is a mystery !!!
So this is the Mystery of God !!!